I'm tired of feeling like a dog. Everytime I want to talk to someone, I don't know what to say but I just want their attention. I'm tired of having to just say random stuff to keep the conversation going. I feel annoying, I feel worthless. I hate going to school. I put my best friend on a pedestal, and I think to highly of them, and then when I see them being affectionate towards someone else, I get jealous. I don't have romantical feelings for them, I just wish so badly that I was their greatest friend. They say they don't have a best friend but I feel like they just say that to not make me feel bad.

Every day becomes more tiring as the school year starts. I go to sleep crying, and I wake up feeling fine. I feel bad and like I'm supposed to be crying still, I feel as if I'm constantly sobbing on the inside.

I hated being inside all the time so I tried asking some friends of mine to hangout, but the plans always fall through. Luckily, my friend got the chance to drive me to school one morning, we got McDonalds and had a nice conversation, two other friends of mine randomly showed up and we all talked about meaningless things, but it made me feel human, it felt really nice to just be out and socialize.